losing it…

Got a huge shock last night. While working on my website I had been consolidating backups from old to new computer, de-cluttering, and at the end of the day missing a folder of very important files for work . . . went to bed with thoughts of the worse . . . what would be the worse that could happen . . . and worse . . . what if I lost the whole computer . . . what if I didn’t have a table or a chair or a room or roof over my head . . . what if I didn’t have a body working properly . . . what if I didn’t have a body . . . what would be left . . . nothing! — Just a sweet silent nothingness. — Not even nothing to be thinking “what ifs”!

When I woke up in the morning my body was there intact . . . the bed, the chair the table and the computer where all still there . . . even the thoughts . . . when I opened the computer the files where still . . . nowhere to be seen, but when I searched for them they suddenly where there.

Grateful for “what is” as well as for “what ifs” because both made me grateful today.
And one last bizarre thought: “what if” this was God’s way of showing me how to de-clutter my head and not just my life . . . really letting go!